Monday, April 12, 2010

Wisdom from a darkened corner

I often reflect back to the weekend's frivolities in the beginning of the week to better understand my actions and thought(ful) thinking. In the reading and Work (Inner-Spiritual) that I've been doing, I have come to realize that wisdom is not only within, but from people and experiences (externally) as well.

For the past few months, I have been searching and desiring a 'Teacher'. Unbeknownst to me that my desire was right in front of me. Not only reflected in the mirror image that I see when I wake up every morning, but in friends, lovers, co-workers, family...everything and everyone has the opportunity for one to learn.

The weekend was filled with lovely pleasures. A massage Friday night with the introduction to a modern but magic wand, dreams of future events, extensive discussions w/ a non-coverting Christian, lots of giggles and dancing with girlfriends, hosting a new Couch Surfer who sees things, too... a face-off with Judgement and a relinquish on control...

The past two nights led me to realize how easy individuals judge others before judging themselves. I am certainly privvy to that. No denial here. How susceptible we are to placing blame on others and yet, how often do we concern ourselves in replacing another's name for our own? I implore you to contemplate the answer to that question and request that you consider a 'Check-In' of your own actions prior to expediting blame or responsibility on another.

This concept applies to all aspects of life. Again and again, I've seen it done. One's happiness, one's love, one's money gets directed (and inadvertently) placed in the hands of another (either figuratively or literally or both).

Who's responsible for your happiness?

Who is reponsible for paying your bills?

And love. Who is ultimately responsible for loving you?
And another question is, if you don't love you as you are, right now...how can you expect someone else to?

The answer was quite clear to me.

It begins with: You.

Gratitude goes to my unlikely Teachers from this past weekend. Our conversations were in-depth and enlightening. It just goes to show you that Wisdom can even come from the darkened corners of a local bar on a Saturday night if one is open to receiving it.

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-A